2024.12.1
Well, another week has quietly passed. Time always slips away like the wind drifting over the water’s surface. The income and expenditure ratio for November is still glaring: -3929.35.
This week’s wind is particularly biting, and compared to last week, the trees seem even more desolate. Except for Thursday, I hardly stepped on the pedals of my bike. Sam is the same, occasionally choosing to take the bus to school alone. Imagining him with his backpack in the cold wind, I feel a mix of emotions, hard to describe whether it’s guilt or relief.
Recently, he made a friend in the same class. They always have endless things to talk about after school. Since the friend’s house is between ours and the school, they sometimes run into each other on the way. I often worry about his safety going to and from school alone, but I’m also afraid that continuing to pick him up will make him feel embarrassed in front of his friend.
The children around are a bit younger than Sam and often go to and from school alone. Perhaps I am being overly worried. After all, I started crossing the village alone to go to school in the first grade. But the current social atmosphere has some things that worry me. The cold descriptions and images in the news seem unable to dispel the shadows in my heart. It’s not just me; Xena is also anxious, and even Sam’s grandmother calls me every time to remind me to pick up and drop off Sam.
This week, I bought two games on Steam with Sam (Subnautica and Assassin’s Creed Odyssey). One is set in the deep sea, and the other in ancient Greece. Sam didn’t like the deep sea one and returned it. He kept the one set in ancient Greece.
ChatGPT said I have “domain name anxiety”. It’s true. I’m always thinking of various creative ideas, considering that there are many interesting things in this world waiting for me to explore. However, I always hesitate to move forward. Those registered “domain names” are like infinite possibilities for the future, slipping away one after another, and by the time I realize it, countless have vanished without a trace.